So much.

This morning I am knee deep in excitement, preparation, nerves and anticipation for the next few days. For those of you who have been around on this blog know that a few weeks ago I won a scholarship to the Philadelphia’s Writer Conference.

I leave tomorrow, with the thought that just a few days ago I wasn’t going to even be able to attend. But God.

But God period.

He is continually blowing me away with the plans He always has brewing…that I know nothing about. I love to be surprised and God completely blew me away with this scholarship, airfare and arrangements for my girls.

It feels so good to have people support and believe in this purpose that God has given my heart. And to those people [and they know who they are] I was filled with so much undeniable gratefulness as I laid my head down to sleep last night.

Listen, I know full and well I have a long road ahead of me still.

But slowly, God is leading me step by step into the promises He gave me two years ago. I am not trying to become the next Beth Moore, Joyce Meyer or even Billy Graham. I am Nicki Koziarz -whose last name is very difficult to say. I am an unlikely Jesus girl who has been through a lot in the few short years of my life who just wants to bring healing through Him to other’s with similar roads. And I know if I will just hang on, He will continue to allow me to see glimpses of what He’s doing. I have so much to learn still and so many areas to improve on but He keeps showing me -there is no qualification for His touch on our lives.

And so, I will pack up my carry on bag (because have mercy for luggage fees) and I will carefully place my book proposals, business cards and hairspray (because you don’t travel without that staple) inside of it. I will kiss my girls and husband good-bye and leave this city of Charlotte that I love so much. I will fasten my seat belt and take off in an aircraft that I will ask the hand of God to hold carefully -for safety and because…there’s a big dream inside of it.

I will go to a city that I’ve never explored, stay with a roommate I do not know and meet people who are way out of my league. I will sit face to face with publishers (again) who will intimidate the living daylights out of me and we will play the rounds of: platform, writing, idea and purpose.

And I will pray fiercely that one person will see it. That they will see God…in me and in the carefully typed words in front of them.

I expect rejection. I expect some praise. I expect new friendships and I expect to see God in the most unlikely way. Because that just seems to be how He rolls with me.

I will stand behind the vision and I will stand on behalf of every unlikely Jesus girl out there.

So friend, I don’t know where you are on your journey. I don’t know where I’m at either. I’m just taking things one step at a time. I’m not looking in front or behind or beside…I’m just walking.

And I don’t know who this is for, but I feel like that’s what God wants you to do too. Just keep walking. Keep your head high, your confidence in Him and your steps simple.

Ok, now…listen. I’ve got some news. No, I’m not pregnant…(ha)….Three Girly Girls is in its last days. I hate it like its not even funny but I just can’t have two blogs. So…change is good. Change is good. Change is good. Repeat after me…Change is good. (smile)

So be on the lookout soon for a new and awesome site that will be redirected right from here. You will like it, I promise. It’s good for your eyes to have something new to look at. [smile]

Ok, off I go. Philly, I don’t know what you have for me, but I’m coming! Wish me luck. Say a prayer. Or both. (preferably…prayer. 🙂 )