Episode #138 | Unplanned Break, Unexpected Lessons
Apr
22
Episode #138 | Unplanned Break, Unexpected Lessons
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No words! Just tears! So many tears! Although my personal situation is quite different I truly understand!!! Jesus didn’t want the cross but he went! That’s why we can identify with him and just look at his outcome!!!!! I am still wondering what God is doing but the outcome is in God’s hand!!! Praying for you and your family!!!!
Thank you Nicki. I can relate to what you shared. I am taking away that I can show up even when I’m limping. I am praying for you and your family.
Dear Nicki, Thank you for being so open and vulnerable. We all go through some awfully hard times, and I’m sorry you have been hit from so many different directions all at once! (I have a son adopted from Korea, now a wonderful grown man, not without some medical issues; I was caretaker of my husband for his 5 year battle with Alzheimers, watching him gradually deteriorate before he passed.) It’s okay to cry out, be angry, upset, and shake your fist at God! I lived in the Psalms for ages. We don’t understand the hard times; sometimes the only ‘out’ is ‘through.’ I leave you with Ps 139:5:
“You go before me and behind me. You place Your hand of blessing on my head.”
May you feel God’s comforting hand upon you.
You will be in my prayers.
Susie Burge
Love you Nicki. Good to hear your voice, but not so good to hear those tears. You have to worry about Nicki for a while.
You are not a fraud. You are honest and open and we love that about you.
Sending lots of prayers for Nicki and for your family.
Thank you for your continuing obedience to God’s calling on your life even through the hard seasons. May God continue to bless you as you bless all of us with whom you share From the Farm. You are a blessing!! Love and prayers !
We Love You Nicki!!! 🥰 Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.
Thank you Nicki for being so transparent & vulnerable with your situation. It has blessed me and helped me to find peace in my own difficult season & to remember to keep holding onto the Lord for HE DID speak his truth to me. I WAS obedient. And He has NOT left me! Thank you! Sending virtual hugs! Praying always for you & your family!
Dearest Nicki, no one said the road would be easy, but I don’t believe God brought you this far to leave you!
Praying God shows Himself strong in your life!
Sending much love and warm hugs your way. Praying blessings upon Blessings over you and your family.
God Speed and God Bless!
Robin T.
Hi Nicki,
Hard seasons are just that. Hard. Thank you for sharing your hardships with us…I’m sure everyone can relate to your struggle in one way or another.
I’ve been in a “hard season” for a very long time. It started years ago and progressed, accordingly into all sorts of miserable things. Things were so bad I couldn’t cry. I just turned numb. I couldn’t turn to anyone because some of the things couldn’t be shared, even with friends. Other things couldn’t be understood except by a few and others were too painful to talk about. I shut out the few friends that I had and now I have even fewer.
Some of the things are still being dealt with so every day is a reminder that it’s not over yet. But with God’s help, I actually feel like I’m starting to see the sun again. My hard season is not over, but I’ve realized that by putting everything in God’s hands and accepting that I am right where He wants me to be, that I am going to be ok. So, I’m trusting in God’s plan. I know it’s a good one, even if it’s not what I wanted. I’m doing God’s work, for Him, every day and that gives me comfort. I accept and I believe in God’s perfect plan!
I will keep you and your beautiful family in my prayers!
Praying for you Sis! I too am dealing with things that can only be shared with God. Little by little he is bringing me through.. 🙏🏽
Blessings to you Nikki God is in control !! I love your honesty and trust in God you are an inspiration too all. 🙏🙏Blessings 🙏🙏
My heart is torn for you, but I love how you show us God is holding your hand and walking with you through this season. I pray for your continued healing and the journey. In the name of Jesus. Amen.
Hugs, Nicki. May God hold you extra close.
God bless you! Thank you for sharing and being so honest. You made me cry, but blessed my soul! I will be praying for you and your family, which includes your beloved animals .
Your story reminds me of Job and I know you know how that turned out for him, praise the LORD!!
🙏🩷 prayers for you & your beautiful family
Your struggles and your message are very relatable. I pray encouragement for you and your family. Thank you for sharing your difficult circumstances so others can also draw comfort and strength in knowing they are not alone.
Oh Nicki, I feel your pain. I too have struggled with depression in the last few years. The constant pain of the results of cancer have weighed me down so much. I am praying for you. You have the kindest heart of anyone I’ve ever known. My heart and prayers are with you.
Thank you Nicki. I feel like the Lord spoke through you just for me on this podcast. Thank you for your honesty and for your faithfulness. Please know the Lord is working through you. Prayers for you and your family. You have been a blessing to me. 🙏❤️
Thank you Nicki for being so brave and vulnerable in sharing. It’s powerful because it shows God’s grace working in and through your life. Having suffered with seasons of clinical and spiritual depression over many years, my experience is that afterwards I’m glad the Lord allowed them to happen. Eventually!
God is so faithful and He does not let us go through excruciating times alone. I’ve been pondering this Easter week, about how Jesus suffered on the cross, just as the criminal next to him suffered also. The criminal said, ‘Remember me, when You enter your kingdom.’ Jesus understands all our pain and weaknesses, yet suffers right alongside us. A man of sorrows, acquainted with grief but walks into our pain too. He loves us, fills us with His compassion and peace and will never leave us. Praise Him. God bless you and your precious family. 🙏🏻
Dear Nicki~ you are the sweetest person! Thank you for always being so real and for being such a great example, even in the hard things! You make me want to come up higher!
‘thinking of you and praying for you 💕I hope things get better soon 💕
Thank you Nicki! Limping along with you. In a season of hard here too. Thank you for sharing your hard so we can all learn together. Probably one of my favorite episodes. Love you in Christ!
Thank you for your vulnerability. You will never be the same person again but you’ll be changed in a way that brings you closer to God and closer to His plans for your life. It’s wonderful to hear you are getting help as you move through your walk. Prayers for you and your family. We have a Frenchie and she brings so much love and joy to our family. I wish the same for you and Paris!!
Blessings to you Nicki. I’m praying for you and your family. God loves you.
Thank you Nicki for speaking from your heart. My life has been chaos with health issues for my husband and my 95 year old dad who lives 2,000 miles away. The light of God has been shining through the pain but it’s been hard to see it. Now I realize how much God has been there all along the way. God bless you and I can’t wait to hear from you again. Blessings!
Nicki you are a wonderful, strong and spirit filled woman! Thank you for this pod cast. Hugs and may our Savior continue to bless you and watch over you and your family always. 🙏
Prayers for you, you let us know we are not alone. Been trying to care for my mom and get her back to an assisted living and the stress of working with people who don’t communicate is crazy. This is something I got at church one day, I love the peace it gives, it’s probably not complete but felt that I should share.
Lord, I have come to thee to take thy touch before I begin my day. Let thine eyes rest upon my eyes for awhile. Let me take to my work the assurance of thy comradeship my friend. Amen
Just feels peaceful to me, blessings to you.
Dearest Nicki,
Even though you emailed this beautiful podcast out on 4/22/25, I haven’t had a chance to listen to it until today. You are so amazing because even in your hard and your vulnerability, you teach me how to hold on to my faith. My heart ached as I listened to you reveal thru deep pain and tears that your life has just been so hard for a good while now… So much concern, so much loss, so much grieving.
In the last year of my life I have also struggled with depression, despite my deep faith in our loving Lord. There have been days that I just didn’t want to get out of bed! Too many days I just didn’t want to do anything. Our youngest son is an alcoholic and has been for about 12 years now, he is 33 yo. He just refuses to get the help he needs and will not open his heart to our loving Lord Jesus. It tears my Mama heart apart and it has also been so hard for my husband! And yet, as you said, we press on even in the hard and the hurt and hold fast to our faith…
I also am on medication and have a wonderful Christian counselor. There have been many times that I have just wished I could run away from all of this pain but I never would. I know Jesus will see us through it all…
Thank you so much for “Blessed Endings Beautiful Beginnings”… It meant so much to me, and I continue to refer to it each month of this year as I fill in my goals for each month. My word for the year is “hope” and my verse of the year is Romans 15:13.
Thank you for all that you do in your ministry. I will hold you up in prayer as you continue to be obedient to God in all that you do. You have been in my life for a long time now and I thank God for you!
Much love and many blessings to you,
Sarah🩵😇🦋🙏🏼🩵